I Will Possess Your Heart

How I wish you could see the potential,
the potential of you and me
It's like a book elegantly bound,
but in a language that you can't read

4 more weeks

With the all important date looming I couldn't help but sit down and think about what I've accomplished during my 2 years and how it has changed my friends, myself and my views on things.

My time in the Army has equipped me with a new found temper. I've had it under control ever since BMT but it does come out to play once in a while as I found out a few moments back. I've never been one to get into a direct confrontation or a fight/argument/squabble but I'm now not afraid to get into one. Sometimes I even secretly wish for one.

Maybe it's due to my vocation in camp that grants me regimental powers over everyone which has made me more numb to other people around me. But I like the new me better than Hatta pre-NS. I'd like to think that I've become more objective rather than numb although my new found temper and objectivity has been detrimental to some of my relationships these past couple of years.

Sometimes you got to be cruel to be kind you know.

My friends have changed too. Some good, some bad and I guess it's due to the fact that being in NS allows you to put away with all the inhibitions that you once had and this is especially true of many of the mcm guys who have been the subject of the matriarchal rule back then in poly.

However way you see it, NS had changed me for the better I'd like to think. But at the cost of many dressing downs, sleepless nights of duty, regiment, bouts of collective depression among fellow NSF's, low allowances, awful food and many more cons I've lost count of, has it been worth it?